苦闷 irrtancy

不知道该怎么去面对接下来的人生,都不知道自己该做什么,心里总是很乱.十月份的两门考试都考不好.十一月的那一门应该也是过不了....
两年多了.来北京,之前说过不会后悔,现在呢?我是否已经在后悔呢?我不知道,我只是心情不好,我只是找不到生活的方向.我只是在胡思乱想.
今天看到一段话,很像是在说我.心里的那一份追求,狂野,随着日子一天天的消失,从以前的胜利者变成现在的落泊人.
也许没有人想失败,想生活在底层,可为什么会那么多人那么地平凡.
而我,是不是也是平凡的呢...


I don't know how to do in my next day . I don't know what I gotta do. That is pretty at six and seven in my mind. I failed in the exam which examined in October , and I think the exam which examined in November also can not pass.
It was two years when I came to Beijing. I said I would not repent. But now? If I have kind of repent ? I don't know , I just in a bad mood . I just can not fine my way in the life. I just have a bee in my head.
I read a passage today. It like to point at me . the aspiration and the wild in my heard, is losing
follow the time lose, I from a winner fall into a loser.
maybe no body want to be loser ,and live in the bottom of the society.but why there have so many people's life just ordinary.
and me , if also will have a ordinary life.

那秋时

金灿灿的阳光温暖地在空气中流动,每一下呼吸都充满了暖意.
风吹起,金黄色的银杏叶翻转着从空中飘落,闪耀着金色,听那打落在身的声音,似乎是那轻柔的歌声.
刹时间,地面铺满了金色,追着风,顺着那一条小道,跳跃着向前奔去.

呆呆的 logy

一场小病让自己休息了一个星期,开始每天睡了又睡,后来是发呆,就是发呆.好不容易病愈,却发现自己忘了该怎么去安排生活,不知道每天要干什么.日子在一天天的不知所措中走过.有时候停下来想,自己好像什么也没做,未来似乎很黑暗.过了这么久了,自己好像依旧没有长大,处理很多事情还是那样的幼稚,为什么呢.

A indisposition take me in a week "holiday".I sleeping and sleeping at the begining,after I just logy.last recover form the illness, I find that I forget how to live, I don't kown what I want to do everyday .I am at a lose and days pass day after day.some times I thinks , it seems that I didn't do anything ,the future seems in the dark. time go away,but I seem didn't grow up . I am infantile in manage many things. why...

英文歌 english song

喜欢英文歌并不是从一开始接触英文开始的,那时候,英文只是考试的必修课,没有一点乐趣(也许一开始有吧).印象中,张学友的"吻别"是自己知道并喜欢听的第一首英文歌(除去字母歌).后来,喜欢上了网络,接触了几个网友,杨霞是在QQ的英文聊天室认识的.那时候喜欢上了M2M的歌.后来,英文似乎又成了考试.今年偶然听到Declan Galbraith的"tell me why",便喜欢上了.并下载了他的三张专辑.再后来,便喜欢上了听英文歌.虽然自己的英文不好.今天在Eglish!baby上学英文,一个新词"under the radar",让我听到了Daniel Powter的歌,或许会喜欢上吧.在听着呢...

I like the english song wasn't in the first time when I meet the english. At that time ,english just a lesson whice must to be exam,have not fun (maybe it's funny in the begining).In my mind, Jackdy Chan's "take me to your heart" is the first english song I konw and I like (except ABC song).and later .I like the network ,and I meet some net friend. Yang Xia is a friend who meet me in the QQ chat.And that time ,I go to be a fan of M2M.And later,english also just a lesson. I was heared "Tell me why" which song sing by Declan Galbraith this year just by a chance.I like it on the frist time I heard.and I download three CD of he on the net.And I like to listen english song from that time ,altho my english is poor. today.when I learn a new word "under the radar" in Eglish!baby online.I was heard the song sing by Daniel Powter.maybe I will like it.listening ....

宿命 foreordination

我真的厌恶这种事，每一次当我决心去做某一件事或者说改变一些事，总会在下一秒让我的心情变糟．我不知道是为什么？我该怎么去做？我是否应该学会去说＂不＂．

Ｉreally loathe to meet this things every time, when I decide to do something or to change something , there always have something to make me feel bad just next second. I don't konw why,and how I have to do ? If I must to learn how to say "NO!"

无向 lose the way

真的不知道,为什么会穿梭在这林间,在寻找什么,在等待什么.
每一天,好像不是自己的感觉,匆匆地,忙忙碌碌的,甚至无聊的.今天与昨天似乎没有什么不一样,明天又会成为今天.
也想有一个美丽的梦,一个让自己努力去圆的梦.不知道什么时候起,自己竟然迷了路,找不到方向.
不敢想像的明天,不敢想像的未来,不敢想像的自己.

Really,I don't konw , why am I walking here,what I'm looking for ? and what I'm waiting for ? Everyday , as though that is not my felling. Everything is hasty, and everyhting is abustle, even boring. Today just like yesterday ,and tomorrow will be today.
Also, I wish I can have a beautiful dream, which one can make me working hard on it .Unconsciously, I lose the way , I can not find the way.

辗转...

This is not my first bolg,also not my first writing .